God's path took me somewhere different

I am currently writing this post in a cute little coffee shop in Houston! Yes, I am back home. I have come to the crucial realization that sometimes our will for our lives does not align with God's will for our lives.

I find peace and comfort in the fact that God has a plan for my life, although I wish it was with Maryknoll in El Salvador, I understand that it isn't, at least for right now, and you know what...That's ok. I am a strong believer that all things happen for good and all things happen for a reason...So I now look forward to what is to come.

 I miss everyone back in New York very very much. God granted me the blessing of getting to know 12 amazing people! They have given me more than I could have ever asked for and I know they are going to do some amazing things in mission.

God is such a caring, loving, compassionate being that has surrounded me during this difficult time. If you read the post I posted a few days ago then you will see what I mean. The day I found out I was going to be going home God spoke to me in a way that prepared me for what was to come later in that day. To be in the place where I am right now, not angry, not resentful, but a little sad, and fully understanding and open is  only because of God and His sweet graces!

I now look towards the future and where God is going to lead me. If God's call is not in El Salvador with Maryknoll I can only take comfort in the fact that He has someting even greater in store for me. I'm excited to figure this out!

So, for all those who have been supporting me and praying for me during this time, I ask that you continue to support me through this difficult transition and  pray for me as I continue to search for God's will.

I AM

Inspiration for today:

I struggle to understand who I am. Especially when it comes down to how God created me and who He wants me to be. I believe society has created an image of who we should be and I say screw that image! It's so hard to find who you are when who you are fogged by what society says you should be...I should know....I struggle with this everyday!

But....

This morning as I sit in adoration listening to music I begin to ask God..."God who am I, who am I who am I??" over and over I ask myself who I am hoping God will fill the room with answers. Instead God fills the room with the beautiful song by Mark Schultz called I Am. Wow! As I struggle to find who I am God instead asks me to focus on who He is. It's interesting because I want so much to focus on who I am that I have lost the most important thing: who God is.

God is:
The Risen Son of Man
The Healer of the Broken
("and when you cried") I am The Savior and Redeemer
The Author and the Beggar
The Beginning and the End
The Universe
The Where you Are
The Lord of Lords
The King of Kings

Because of who God is is because of who I am. Past, Present, and Future God is still the same; although I am forever changing I can take comfort in the fact that God wants me to be the best I can be and that who I am is amazing, precious, and forever His!

So I praise God for enlightening me this morning to open me up beyond what I see on the surface and allowing me to focus on who He is. Only through that will I be led to understand more of who I am...AS A CHILD OF GOD; To love and to be loved.